i used to be that girl who had everything- friends, brains, looks, boys, star athlete, secure family, money, and happiness.

Two years later, i feel like I  am nothing. I no longer bring home MVP awards, scholarship money, or receive 100s of texts and calls and pure love.

I just came home for summer and I’m sitting in my room and looking at all the old pictures on the wall, none of it seems familiar.

That’s not me anymore.

I might still look the part, but inside, i hurt so bad. I put on this front- typical happy, outgoing, bubbly me.

i can’t do it anymore. i’m living a life i never thought i would be. i want to leave it now before i dig myself too deep. i’m meeting all these expectations for other people, none of it, none of it I’m realizing, is for myself.

SOmetimes you do need to be a little selfish. THe next time you look at that beautiful, laughing girl who seems like she has everything, and you pre-judge her.

Take a step back. We are all people, we all have lives, heartbreaks, issues, diseases, losses.

You never know what your next door neighboor, or high school homecoming queen, or CEO of your company is going through. They might seem like they have it all, and some of you probably envy them. This isn’t the case for all, some reall ARE ass holes, douche bags, and HAVE been spoiled their entire life.

But in reality, we’re more like one another than we think.

Give that person a chance. You’re initial beliefs might be proven correct, but i strongly believe that more times than not, you’re in for a surprise.

let love in.